What am I doing?

“How is it going?” “What are you working on?” “How’s life?”

While seemingly casual, these questions can also feel awkward and confrontational, leading to a more existential question:

What am I doing?

Life as a critical designer is often defined by (financial) precarity and the pressure to perform. It requires juggling paid work, applying for open calls, navigating insecurities and dealing with refusals, finding time to experiment, and maintaining a healthy work–life balance. For this exhibition, I have been reflecting on the past three years since graduating and working as a critical designer. What have I done? How has my practice evolved? What direction am I heading in? And do I actually enjoy what I am doing, along with everything it takes to make ends meet?

To reflect on these questions, I printed my calendar, spanning every day from my graduation until the closing of this exhibition. It offers an ordinary record of time spent: busy days, empty days, work, meetings, social activities, deadlines, and moments of doubt.

Visitors are invited to tear away one or more days from the calendar, revealing fragments of my personal life, and the process of building a creative practice.

Photos by Fabio Meinardi, courtesy of Arachne Collective.